Sienz...

Sigh! What's all the sighing about, u may ask. It seems pretty boring being in KL most of the time. From the time I came to KL, I have been complaining most of the time... but it does not mean that the good things are absent.

The days I have been in KL have been a time of reflection on a lot of things, touching a lot of areas... Life is really full of challenges, and that's the fun part of it, but too many challenges and no effective plans made it all boooooriiiiiiiiggg!! So... sigh....!!

Eventful Week

It is amazing that this time round I am called back to my hometown for work. Within this week only, everyday has been filled with events and celebration, apart from work. There is a Healing Rally which I thought I would totally missed, but managed to join the last one. Then, there was a house warming and celebration of cute twin girls, followed by a farewell to a dear friend after that. The next day, another farewell to a dear friend who will be leaving to NZ. Guess what? Today, morning, I attended a wedding ceremony of my friends. Makes me wonder, what will happen tomorrow...???

Great also to be back and catch up with friends and close ones. It is also wonderful that I am able to make this trip useful when giving moral & prayer support to a friend in tough situation.

Sorry, no photos. I am still figuring out the suitable camera, else would make my blog perrrrfect!

Don't cry for me, Sarawak!!

Today's my last day in Miri... It's a wonderful place - small town, quiet, and easy going.. I am taking this as a good vacation and "break away" from KL life, although I come here for work. Going to leave Sarawak tomorrow morning, and will not know when will be back... so will miss my friends and all that I have built here... and start anew in KL.

My stay in Miri has actually helped to put my thoughts together and strategize for the new life in KL... This way I will be more easily adapted to the change and life. There are still many uncertainties, though. With prayer and petition, all things will turn out good!!

First time in Miri - Day 1 :-)

Landed in Miri last nite, and it was wonderful! Everything was fast and efficient - by the time I arrived at the luggage collection, my luggage was almost passing by me! Then off to the taxi coupon counter... Thank God that the coupon was only RM20! (Before this, my colleuge said that it cost RM30, but as I was going into the airport, I was asking God to reduce it to RM20... He answered!!). As I walked to the taxi stand, there're a lot of taxis leaving with passengers in it... as I walked on, another taxi just arrived and he was quick to stop and open the compartment area for my luggage. He sent me to the hotel, where they offered me cheaper price with coporate rate... I didn asked, though... wow!! And the room is niiiiiceeeee!!!! (too bad I don have a camera to shoot!!)

Nevertheless, it has been challenging when I came to work this morning. My collegue did not turn up, did not picked up when I called. He could at least inform me who to look for in the office. Then I also discovered that the IT person just knew about the training, and has just started to set up the training room That is ok, coz setting up is easy, but there was a problem connecting to the wireless! So while waiting, I chatted with my "students" and found out that the training is not going to be as usual... no one informed about the changes... talked to the PIC, he also blur blur, no one seems to know anything!! And I still can't contact my collegue!! Finally, I just do what I need to do, within the constraints, and changed the whole program... Sigh!! The training started late, and with facilities not enough, I guessed I need to "break some rules"... my client ok nia!! hahaha!

The morale of the experience is stay cool, there is always a way... just have to open eye BIG BIG! :D

Back in action!

Been a while since I have updated this blog because I have forgotten about it, until a dear friend of mine gave me his blog URL... and yes, it's a Blogspot too!!

So I thought, why not put up some updates of me, let my friends view and comment... since I am faraway from home as well :)

Changed the title, add some description... hope it will inspire you all as well!! Drop by when you are free!!

Cheers!!!

Center of my life

Recently, I heard this song by Hillsong - Center of my life...

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes on you
Lord I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me,
Holding onto You

Freedom comes
When I call You Lord
You are Lord my God

You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you
The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
you placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty
I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding onto you

This is your song not mine
It is your song that bring healing to this land
This is your song not mine
It is your song that brings feedom
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
You are Lord, my God
You are the song
You are the majesty
I live to sing your song
Your majesty
I live to sing Your song


I felt so in touch with this song... especially now, after the camp, and after all that I have been thru, I believe that God is reminding me again to move on. Despite all the things and unexpected happenings. "...seek the Lord with all your heart and He will grant the desires of your heart..."

I think this song is a song of my heart as well.... Really beautiful...

Thy will be done - real experience

This is a continuation of the previous post, although unexpected... because I think it is necessary to share a life experience

Last Friday, I was rebuked by God, for my ignorance and lack of submission to my leader. All these while, I thought it has been the passion for God's work in me, and do not want it to go away... It was out of a right heart at first, but gradually, I was diverted or misguided myself... The tasks I did was noble and Godly - follow up on people, getting someone with a history of 'difficult' problem to join the group, also to help out, and the aim to disciple this person...

However, I never consulted or talked with my leader about this and also other things before this, and acted on my own. When I told her about the outcome of what I have done, I sensed she was burdened, or uncomfortable... that was when I started to think more... and realized I have not been in line with the direction and goal of the CG. I know, but I really know when I was spending my time with God - when He rebuked me.

It has been difficult, I was down the whole day, and I began rearranged my priority and goals, setting them to the original ones. When I made those goals, at least I was still quite ok, my judgment was not clouded. I really do not know what to become, as all these while I thought I was in the right path when actually I was in the wrong....

So this is the setback I faced, when serving... no doubt I really want to grow, but sometimes I can be wrong also... reminds me of Peter of the Bible... Many times he mentioned of stupid things or do stupid actions, but he is also one of the closest friend with Jesus. But God is good, the heartache I faced was over by yesterday evening... and God has spoken, telling me to persevere on with thanksgiving and hope in Him.... That's how He came to rescue me from sinking...

Thy will be done

Matt 14:28-33
28 "Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."
29 "Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God." (from New International Version)

How many times have been through this situation: You got a calling from God, probably He confirms it with you a few times, you believed and act upon it. You are filled with the Holy Spirit and are on fire. You became more effective in your service, and in what ever you do...

As time goes by and by, you faced challenges, but managed to overcome... probably you prayed, and prayed earnestly... but after a few months the spirit just died down, and somehow you just don't feel the same anymore... somewhat returned to the old boring times that you've been before... and no matter what or how you've done it, even you tried to mimick the things you've done before, it just didn't work...

Well, this is the description of what I am going through many times, and I am feeling tired of it... somewhat angry and frustrated as well... but I tried to hold my anger and frustrations back, as I am still waiting for answers from Him... and He spoke through these verses...

In these verses, Peter requested Jesus to walk on water, so that he can go to Him. Jesus gave the order, and Peter got out of the boat and walked on water. But later, the wind came, and Peter became nervous and started sinking. Then, Jesus reached out His hand, and saved him.

The first thing I can observe here is that, when we ask of His will, He will surely provide answers. He will tell you as He told Peter,"Come!" and, with that, you become empowered to do the things you've asked and He has approved.

Then, challenges come... and maybe the first few times we may be able to overcome... but the challenges gets greater and greater... or is it our faith gets lesser and lesser...?

At this time, it is only reasonable to evaluate ourselves and our situation... "What happened?" is probably the best starter question. Could it have been sin that has been built into our hearts, or the challenges has got too much for us to handle? Sin... - probably what we started out to do for God has diverted to something else... Challenges..- What can be greater than God?

In any circumstances, ask God, as Peter cried out for help! He will surely extend His hands and pull you out from sinking... going through this is not so bad, because in the outcome will bring us to know the power and grace of God to us... and would praise and worship Him more!!

Hope-Filled Christian

Yesterday was the last of the 3 day BC about "A Hope-Filled Church". This time, I think the BC is more meaningful, because God answered my prayer, and I have an issue that I can relate this topic with. So I think I learnt more this time than the previous BCs.

Ever since I came back from KL, I have been so filled with hope. I have been pondering to myself and asked God what all is this energy, motivation and encouragement in me is all about... Now I know, and the energy, motivation and encouragement that I received from this hope has changed me tremendously throughout. I think that through the travelling to KL, and other parts of the country, God has opened my eyes to many things that has been kept from me. And I came back with a changed perspective, with a heart filled with hope in God.

I also learnt that there is such things as biblical hope and unbiblical hope. The world, as we see it today, is filled with false hope. Many lived in "illusions and delusions", and put their security in the wrong places. I have been influenced by the world at times and adopt their kind of hope, but knowing the difference between the worldly and Godly hope helps me to live a more meaningful and fulfilled life...

And praise God that He enables His people to be filled with true hope, he reassures His people of the fulfillment of their hope. We can have have hope in His promises, in His power, and through His character.

How do I become a hope-filled person? I think the best way is to ask God and the Holy Spirit to guide and teach me. Above all, ask for a sensitive heart, so that I can clearly listen when God is speaking. I have frequently, if not everyday, ask for the Holy Spirit to guide me in my actions, decisions, my emotions and thoughts, so that I may glorify Him through my life.

The world today, is so full of hopelessness, where they depend on drugs, alchohol, work, etc. Being a church that is so filled with hope can influence the world of Godly values and open their eyes to Jesus. People will see what we do, and action speaks louder than words.

Faith and seeds...

Matt 17:20
20 He replied, "... I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." (from New International Version)

Have you ever wondered how a seed, any seed (not just the mustard seed), something so small can grow to become a really huge tree? In school, we learnt that the seed contains the basic ingredients - the essential nutrients - that, when fused with water and other minerals from the ground, will begin to grow roots and sprout into a tree... eventually bear fruits...?

So I believe, faith in GOD is the basic ingredient, and the situations/ problems/ circumstances/ etc we are in are like the 'water' and 'minerals' that will help us sprout and grow roots.

So therefore, in our circumstances let's put our faith in God, always seeking Him in prayer so that He can lead us and guide us and equip us for every good works. Eventually, whether quickly or in time, we will begin to see the fruits or results of the works.

Think: What situation are you in now that makes you worry? What is this worrying do to you? Now, allocate a time to pray, and in prayer, ask God for faith... Believe that you will get it!! If you have difficulty in faith, keep asking - "... ask and it ill be given to you..." Matt 7:7